Dear S.M,
I wasn't sure if I was going to write this letter, but then I remembered you was an extremely good kisser, however we didn't end on good terms, you left out some important details. I'm not going to travel down memory lane with you, simply because it isn't worth it. What we had wasn't serious, afterall it was a "fling" right? What I am going to say is, I wish you was honest with me from the start. That's the least you owed me, if you'd have told me from the start that you wasn't available, I would've been cool about it, but you lied instead, and I'm so glad what we had wasn't serious. While your intent wasn't malicious, you did decieve me, therefore I had to cut all communications with you. I just hope you're honest from now on, because you are a good guy, I just think you like to have things your way too much. I wish you the best and I hope you're okay.
All the best,
LaCara
Showing posts with label complicated relationships. Show all posts
Showing posts with label complicated relationships. Show all posts
Sunday, 18 July 2010
Wednesday, 14 July 2010
30 Letters of Summer : Day 22 - Someone You Want to Give a Second Chance To
Dear J.M,
I miss you. I wish we still kept in contact, but my pride is big, actually both of our prides are too big lol. I miss the times we would talk about anything and everything, I would love for us to speak again. You were so special to me, we can’t undo the past, but we can create a better future. I want us to have a second chance, because what we had was truly special. We allowed something petty to come between us, and for that I’m sorry, but at the same time it takes two to tango. We took our time to build our relationship, but it crumpled so fast, which makes me wonder was we ever as close as I perceived. I want to mend our relationship, I know it won’t be the same as before, but I can accept that, because everything changes. I was in tuned with you, as you were with me. You always knew how to make me laugh, and you fascinated me with your knowledge. When I looked at you, my heart would fill up with unconditional love. I still care about you, and I want the best for you. I often think about you, and I wonder do you think of me? I was deeply hurt when we decided to break contact, while it was mutual, I really didn’t want to let you go, but I loved you so I did. No one can fill your shoes, and you’ll always have a place in my heart. You was the first guy to actually accept me for “me“, and didn’t try to change or control me. You showed me a glimpse of true happiness, so thank you. I believe everything happens for a reason, and I believe you and I were only meant to be for a moment in time. I wish you nothing but happiness, and the best in life.
Love,
LaCara
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I miss you. I wish we still kept in contact, but my pride is big, actually both of our prides are too big lol. I miss the times we would talk about anything and everything, I would love for us to speak again. You were so special to me, we can’t undo the past, but we can create a better future. I want us to have a second chance, because what we had was truly special. We allowed something petty to come between us, and for that I’m sorry, but at the same time it takes two to tango. We took our time to build our relationship, but it crumpled so fast, which makes me wonder was we ever as close as I perceived. I want to mend our relationship, I know it won’t be the same as before, but I can accept that, because everything changes. I was in tuned with you, as you were with me. You always knew how to make me laugh, and you fascinated me with your knowledge. When I looked at you, my heart would fill up with unconditional love. I still care about you, and I want the best for you. I often think about you, and I wonder do you think of me? I was deeply hurt when we decided to break contact, while it was mutual, I really didn’t want to let you go, but I loved you so I did. No one can fill your shoes, and you’ll always have a place in my heart. You was the first guy to actually accept me for “me“, and didn’t try to change or control me. You showed me a glimpse of true happiness, so thank you. I believe everything happens for a reason, and I believe you and I were only meant to be for a moment in time. I wish you nothing but happiness, and the best in life.
Love,
LaCara
<3
Sunday, 4 July 2010
30 Letters of Summer : Day 12 - The Person You Hate/Caused You alot of Pain
Dear A.A,
You hurt me very deeply. I thought we was "friends", and I cared about you so much, I loved you like a brother, obviously that wasn't enough for you. The fact that you smiled to my face, and then ran to diss me behind my back while I wasn't around hurt me. I thought you would've been man enough to tell me to my face, and you didn't. I guess I was kind of naive to believe you was a "genuine friend", I mean you dissed other people, so I don't know why I believed you wouldn't diss me. Thinking about it now, I'm glad I found out what you're truly like, because I believe "whatever is done in the dark will always come out into the light" , and quite frankly I'm better off without you. You constantly competed against me, you criticised me, and most of the time you was downright rude. Yet I accepted all of your flaws because I thought you had my back, and that was my mistake, but it's your loss. I wish you the best, and one day you'll realise I was a true friend.
LaCara
You hurt me very deeply. I thought we was "friends", and I cared about you so much, I loved you like a brother, obviously that wasn't enough for you. The fact that you smiled to my face, and then ran to diss me behind my back while I wasn't around hurt me. I thought you would've been man enough to tell me to my face, and you didn't. I guess I was kind of naive to believe you was a "genuine friend", I mean you dissed other people, so I don't know why I believed you wouldn't diss me. Thinking about it now, I'm glad I found out what you're truly like, because I believe "whatever is done in the dark will always come out into the light" , and quite frankly I'm better off without you. You constantly competed against me, you criticised me, and most of the time you was downright rude. Yet I accepted all of your flaws because I thought you had my back, and that was my mistake, but it's your loss. I wish you the best, and one day you'll realise I was a true friend.
LaCara
Friday, 25 June 2010
30 Letters of Summer : Day 7 - Your Ex-Boyfriend
Dear V.P,
Looking back to when we was together, I am so glad it didn’t work. We wasn’t meant to be, and I knew that before I agreed to go be with you. I regret buckling under your pressure to go out with you, I wish I stood my ground and continued to tell you “No!”, because I had no feelings for you what so ever. When we was together, I felt stifled, I was restricted and I felt tied down, I wasn’t happy and in fact I was sad the whole time we was together. I was trying to be nice and please you, and I wish I didn’t. The relationship was one sided, and I don’t see how it lasted as long as it did. I wasn’t strong when I was with you, but I’ve learnt from our “relationship”. I’ve learnt not to settle for anything less, and not to be with someone in order to please them, because I sold myself short when I was with you. You was controlling and refused to give me my space, you acted immaturely and didn’t deserve me. You accused me of fooling around, you was jealous and ill tempered, at times you could be sweet but that was very rare. I repressed so much because I didn’t want to cause arguments and tried to make things easy for you! RME (Roll my eyes), you taught me valuable lessons, and I won’t make the same mistakes again, so that’s all I can thank you for. I wish you the best in life…
LaCara
Looking back to when we was together, I am so glad it didn’t work. We wasn’t meant to be, and I knew that before I agreed to go be with you. I regret buckling under your pressure to go out with you, I wish I stood my ground and continued to tell you “No!”, because I had no feelings for you what so ever. When we was together, I felt stifled, I was restricted and I felt tied down, I wasn’t happy and in fact I was sad the whole time we was together. I was trying to be nice and please you, and I wish I didn’t. The relationship was one sided, and I don’t see how it lasted as long as it did. I wasn’t strong when I was with you, but I’ve learnt from our “relationship”. I’ve learnt not to settle for anything less, and not to be with someone in order to please them, because I sold myself short when I was with you. You was controlling and refused to give me my space, you acted immaturely and didn’t deserve me. You accused me of fooling around, you was jealous and ill tempered, at times you could be sweet but that was very rare. I repressed so much because I didn’t want to cause arguments and tried to make things easy for you! RME (Roll my eyes), you taught me valuable lessons, and I won’t make the same mistakes again, so that’s all I can thank you for. I wish you the best in life…
LaCara
Sunday, 20 June 2010
30 Letters of Summer : Day 2 - Your Crush
Dear R.B,
You were officially my most recent “crush”, and to be honest that’s all you’ll ever be to me. I find you extremely attractive, but that's it. We've never actually had a genuine conversation, the only thing we could talk about was football, and most of the time I had no clue what you was talking about ; which is quite unfortunate, because you are really hot. There was no substance to you, you didn’t stimulate me mentally, as much as I wished you did, you didn’t. Although we didn’t have any serious talks, the time we did spend together was great lol! I love how compassionate you were, you stick up for people who are quite vulnerable, which is an amazing quality of yours. I remember when your friend made fun of me because of my size ( this was before we even spoke), yet you stood up for me, so thank you! I love the colour of your eyes, they are a tender hazel green, you have kind eyes. What I found most attractive about you is your cheeky grin, it caused butterflies to flutter in my stomach. I really enjoyed flirting with you, I think that’s what kept me interested in you. If I had the chance, I would’ve liked to get to know you better. I think you are a nice person, but easily led. I really don’t know what else to say but good luck and I wish you the best in life.
Love,
LaCara
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You were officially my most recent “crush”, and to be honest that’s all you’ll ever be to me. I find you extremely attractive, but that's it. We've never actually had a genuine conversation, the only thing we could talk about was football, and most of the time I had no clue what you was talking about ; which is quite unfortunate, because you are really hot. There was no substance to you, you didn’t stimulate me mentally, as much as I wished you did, you didn’t. Although we didn’t have any serious talks, the time we did spend together was great lol! I love how compassionate you were, you stick up for people who are quite vulnerable, which is an amazing quality of yours. I remember when your friend made fun of me because of my size ( this was before we even spoke), yet you stood up for me, so thank you! I love the colour of your eyes, they are a tender hazel green, you have kind eyes. What I found most attractive about you is your cheeky grin, it caused butterflies to flutter in my stomach. I really enjoyed flirting with you, I think that’s what kept me interested in you. If I had the chance, I would’ve liked to get to know you better. I think you are a nice person, but easily led. I really don’t know what else to say but good luck and I wish you the best in life.
Love,
LaCara
<3
Saturday, 19 June 2010
30 Letters of Summer!
Hello dolls, I hope all of you are having a fabulous weekend! So I'm trying to catch up on blogs, and I was browsing Fatshion Forward's blog, and Maddii is currently doing a summer challenge, so I thought I'd join her! So here are the details :
Day 1 - Your Best Friend
Day 2 - Your Crush
Day 3 - Your parents
Day 4 - Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 - Your dreams
Day 6 - A stranger
Day 7 - Your Ex-boyfriend
Day 8 - Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 - Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 - Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 - A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 - The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 - Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 - Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 - The person you miss the most
Day 16 - Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 - Someone from your childhood
Day 18 - The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 - Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 - The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 - Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 - Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 - The last person you kissed
Day 24 - The person that gave you your favorite memory
30 Letters Of Summer
Day 25 - The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 - The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 - The friendliest person you know
Day 28 - Someone that changed your life
Day 29 - The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 - Your reflection in the mirror
This is going to be a challenge, and I look forward to writing these letters. I think this will help me to grow and say some of the things I've been wanting to say, but haven't found the opportunity to do so. So are you going to join? (I hope so lol!) :D
God Bless,
Love,
LaCara
<3
Wednesday, 12 May 2010
Letting Go of it all.....
Letting go of the past and hurtful memories is essential to move forward. I was inspired to write this post, because of someone whom I was very close too.
I had met him last year and I didn’t expect anything to happen between us, amazingly we grew quite close and formed a special bond. At that time I also had a “friend” who was trying with all her might to put me off of him, I couldn’t understand it, then it hit me she had feelings for him. If she’d have told me, I would’ve backed off because I thought she was my “friend” she turned out to be the opposite.
We had a petty argument, and she stopped talking to me, and I was fine with that. However I didn’t know how spiteful she could be, she started spreading malicious rumours about me, and unfortunately people started taking sides, there was no need to take sides, but that was their childish mentality. That whole time she dissed me behind my back, I never said a bad word against her. I had nothing to say, nor did I have anything to prove.
As far as I was concerned she no longer existed in my world. The people who I thought were genuine turned out to be fake, and followers. The person who I thought wouldn’t follow the crowd did, he proved he was another mindless follower instead of the leader I thought he was. I was extremely hurt, I truly loved him and apart of me always will. I gave so much of myself, and received little in return from him.
It’s been a year, and I’ve stopped all contact with him and everyone else who got involved. It has a taken a long dark year to get over him, he was my very first love after all. And every time I used to think about school last year, those painful flashbacks would come back and remind of the pain I had felt. I held on to that pain, not because I wanted to feel bad, but because that was all I had left of him. I’ve realised that it wasn’t me who was unworthy, it was him. In order for me to move on, and to embrace the right things for me, I have to let it go, all of it. I can’t hold on to this anymore, its not helping me, and most importantly it is in the past. So I’m letting it go, because I am worthy of so much more than I was given by him. I’m ready to let it go.
So ladies, if you are holding on to any pain, regret, bad memories; let it go. It’s in the past, we can’t change it, we can’t rewind time, the only thing we can do is move forward and think more carefully about the choices we make. When we let go of the past, we make way for the bright future, and those “memories” don’t have a hold on us anymore.
God Bless,
LaCara
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I had met him last year and I didn’t expect anything to happen between us, amazingly we grew quite close and formed a special bond. At that time I also had a “friend” who was trying with all her might to put me off of him, I couldn’t understand it, then it hit me she had feelings for him. If she’d have told me, I would’ve backed off because I thought she was my “friend” she turned out to be the opposite.
We had a petty argument, and she stopped talking to me, and I was fine with that. However I didn’t know how spiteful she could be, she started spreading malicious rumours about me, and unfortunately people started taking sides, there was no need to take sides, but that was their childish mentality. That whole time she dissed me behind my back, I never said a bad word against her. I had nothing to say, nor did I have anything to prove.
As far as I was concerned she no longer existed in my world. The people who I thought were genuine turned out to be fake, and followers. The person who I thought wouldn’t follow the crowd did, he proved he was another mindless follower instead of the leader I thought he was. I was extremely hurt, I truly loved him and apart of me always will. I gave so much of myself, and received little in return from him.
It’s been a year, and I’ve stopped all contact with him and everyone else who got involved. It has a taken a long dark year to get over him, he was my very first love after all. And every time I used to think about school last year, those painful flashbacks would come back and remind of the pain I had felt. I held on to that pain, not because I wanted to feel bad, but because that was all I had left of him. I’ve realised that it wasn’t me who was unworthy, it was him. In order for me to move on, and to embrace the right things for me, I have to let it go, all of it. I can’t hold on to this anymore, its not helping me, and most importantly it is in the past. So I’m letting it go, because I am worthy of so much more than I was given by him. I’m ready to let it go.
So ladies, if you are holding on to any pain, regret, bad memories; let it go. It’s in the past, we can’t change it, we can’t rewind time, the only thing we can do is move forward and think more carefully about the choices we make. When we let go of the past, we make way for the bright future, and those “memories” don’t have a hold on us anymore.
God Bless,
LaCara
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